i want a world that is bigger and braver than me

where our egos and traumas don’t keep us apart 

where it is okay to be wrong

where it is okay to be forgiven

where we are not hiding under the layers of sediment that make us ourselves but also make us very very old

older than our faces betray

i am afraid that world will never be found 

and I will be living in this one for the rest of my life

with no truth or dignity to lean upon 

no wisdom of experience to share

just loneliness forever 

Once alone but not lonely

Now not alone but lonely